welcome! you have found a great place for support!
We have all walked in your shoes
HAve you tried going to al-anon yet? If not you should give it a try. You will find supportive people who are going through the same things you are.
Start educating yourself about the disease if you haven't already
Also check out the stickies at the top of this forum. Lots of good reading suggestions in the "classic reading"
Keep posting!