Thanks mtr- no unfortunatey I cannot move or rent, it wouldn't make sense for me financially and I have 2 young girls who need stability. I am just looking at it as God put me in this awful situation to force me to address my demons and my codependent self! If I can lern from it then I am only going to be stronger and healthier, instead of running from it. But it sure does force me to address my own issues EVERYDAY and it is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through.