Well Erica, I'm sorry to see that you slipped again. As long as you wake up in the morning and come here looking for support, then you are doing the right thing. My suggestion is to spend some time reading about other people and just getting a feel for tis wonderful place. As you can tell we are here for you, you just gotta look for the support BEFORE you start drinking. I can't believe that anyone here would treat you bad for slipping. The posts in which peole say that you can say whatever you want and that they don't have to read it are right.
Just keep trying girl. Make up your mind that you want to better yourself and keep trying. if you fail again, try again and again and again and again.