Everything is gonna be fine SMT. Everything's gonna be fine.
We as your friends will help you to carry the burden.
Please though, keep coming back to the newcomers forum. I think we should rename it the Alcoholic's ER. So many people come and go. So many need help. By avoiding this forum you won't be able to help them. Helping others is the foundation of sobriety to me because you only get what you give. As the saying goes, "All the love you ever gave was only meant for you." It sounds selfish at first blush but the true meaning rings loud and clear to me. I believe it was the Moody Blues who sang that verse. One of my favorite bands of all time.
So please keep coming back and helping others who need your kind words of love and support. I hope you understand why that is so important.