I love the snow! Can't wait for it to snow here.
Mum's in for her op on her heart tomorrow, little cage thing to keep a valve open, should be out thursday.
Feeling much better after the initial shock / stress / massively confusing emotions of everything, the heart attack, the aggro with the benefit stuff, etc.
Feel like i've got a grip on things now.
Been to my probation thing tonight, part of the community order i have to serve, which kept me out of prison after my relapse & drink driving nightmare last april.
It's helpful as it's a reminder of just where alcohol took me. I was never an aggressive or angry drunk, just a complete idiot.
The other reminder is blackouts. The small window where drink did anything for me got smaller and smaller till it was non-existent.
By the end it was nothing, nothing, nothing, *bang* blackout. Relapses were the same too.
Keeping in mind the consequences of my drinking and the fact that there's nothing there for me have really helped me in the tough times recently.