Alaia

I was just reading Calli's thread..sorry to hear what happened to you. Here I am happy for my ex-abf and thinking maybe his time in his program will make a difference. I read the others who comment on how loved ones get a good amount of clean time under their belt, and then decide to pick up again. Over and over. A friend of mine has a son (33), who just relapsed after 7 years (doc heroin) and saturday night he abducted and kidnapped a 17yr old boy on his way home from work, stole everything he had on him, even his winter coat and dumped the kid off on the side of the road. He's looking @ 20 years in jail now. all because of a relapse. OMG...boy am I in deinal about my ex ever being able to kick this. We've been in contact almost everyday, and its nice to see him clean and trying to live life on lifes terms but what's gonna happen after the 18 months he is court ordered to stay clean? I thought he might be able to do it with this program and then I hear these stories (harsh but true reality) and it makes me so sad. I feel like he might never be able to put this behind him. It hurts. At least I know he has to be sober for the 18 months but even if he makes it pass that...he could go years and years and then one day just snap. I know this is what you guys are always trying to tell me. The light is on, maybe I just wasn't home. I am so distraught. Thanks for letting me vent.