Erica ...
Drinking made me into a woman I detested.
I remember the pain of trying to quit and not being able to.
Then I read a book..."Under The Influence" that explained
why this was happening I finally quit.
Here is a link to excerpts from that book
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
I so hope you too will find your way into a sober life.