Originally Posted by
passing by 
My confusion is staying and waiting or leaving and giving him the option to recovery and let me see that it is really going to happen. It that selfish of me? I just need to go away for a while to clear my head. It seems so pressure filled to stay in the same house with him.
Then do so. You deserve whatever it may be that you need to figure out what you want life to be going forward. Separating does not have to be permanent. I might be but it might no. But you certain deserve to be able to take care of yourself in whatever way you feel is necessary. If separation will provide you with time and space to find clarity, then give yourself that gift.