TOPIC: Go Ahead. Do Some Control Drinking/Drugging. Share What Happened To You.
I'll be glad to share, Assharon: thanks for starting the thread.
The last time I tried controlled drinking was almost a week ago. I controlled it so well, that it rebelled and came right back up while I was driving home after dropping my 13 year-old and a friend off at the mall.
Thankfully, I had a convenience store bag in the car... I'd just picked up soup, a small Italian hoagie (Sub, Hero, Grinder, etc), a diet coke and a ginger ale hoping to absorb it all. All I kept thinking was "Oh God, please don't let anyone I know (or don't know) see me doing this."
When I got home shaking, I quickly tied up the warm bag and threw it into the garbage.
I've tried to visualize this entire episode every day since. I don't want to forget where all that "control" gets me.