inner battle....
For the first time in a year I must say I am relatively calm tonight. Ah is in his 2nd week of a 3 month program. We have had no contact so far. House rules at this point. I am so worry free at this time knowing that he is safe where he is and I am not on eggshells wondering if he is coming home tonight or if he is where he says he is. Its just me and the girls and it is wonderful. I really think we would be ok on our own. In this short time apart I have realized that I dont want to give this up on a "maybe he will do it this time".
I dont ever want to go back to what our lives were.
Now, I just have to work on not feeling guilty about putting me and the kids first.
Why do I feel like I am abandoning him when he is trying really hard to fight this thing.