Wow, meetings... I'm not even close to giving in to the drugs, the pull isn't that strong, more the pull of being with the guy I loved so purely and deeply, and realizing I didn't even know who he was, and he never understood what I felt for him. I'm raising a 2 year old pretty much alone, and between working and still going through a bad situation on the home front, I can't justify taking ANY time away from my daughter. She went through a lot lately, and she's just getting to be a happy kid now too. She wasn't happy when we were there, and now she's got no worries... just a happy kid. That feels nice.