Chiynita...
I understand so well what you're talking about!!! I was there a couple days ago while detoxing hard and thought "since I feel like sh-- anyways, might as well quit the smokes at the same time".... Made sense to me. But then I posted & got all the same advice from this forum -- to wait!
Everytime I light up, I feel a loathing for it - but know now isn't the time (just yet)! It's scary to think of life without smokes! I know the battle of the mind we go through with it and it sucks! I've tried before - unsuccessfully. Others have done it and gone through the agitation and cravings, but make it! I'm jealous!
I wish you all the best with either doing in now or not. You will end up quitting eventually.... I have no doubt!!! Best to you!
Nicki