I agree. I don't even want him back. I had the chance last spring and chose not to. He can be a scary person and we are better off. I told him the best way I knew how to show him I loved him was to leave him alone.
I just would like to think I could talk to him if I ran into him somewhere and get along. That sort of thing.
I don't even want anyone in my life as a relationship now. It's too much work.
I'm just mad the whole thing happened. I didn't deserve it or ask for it. I didn't even know what AA or Al anon was when I met him.... I guess. That's life and the things we learn. It has taught me a lot though. I am a much more understanding person and I don't judge people. (OK with the exception of the pedophile that comes in my office, I have a lot of trouble being nice to him.) But otherwise, I don't judge others. I've learned to live and let live and fully understand the power of the serenity prayer. I have it inscribed in a ring I always wear.
Enough whining for me today. I am thankful to be here. I'll stop being mad now. I'll feel better tomorrow.
