I too hated my father. Add in hating my mother too since she was also an alcoholic. I had every reason to feel hate and anger. They made my life growing up a horror!
For me the way out of that meant moving out of their house at 18 and getting therapy then and now in my 50s. I eventually did forgive them and move past the hate and anger.
You might want to try individual counseling or seeking out groups of folks your age going thru the same things. I didn't know it back then, but one of my closest friends in my teens was going thru a very similar horror of a family life. If only we had talked to each other then we could have helped each other thru it all.