Hope you're all well, fellow infidels!
My mum had a (mild) heart attack on Thursday, she's in hospital having some checks done to find out what the problem is.
Bit of a shock really! She's only 59 and losing my parents isn't something i thought i'd have to think about for a while yet... It's only a mild one - she thought it was a pulled muscle from the gym - a full on one and she would have been on the deck.
There are lots of emotions and feelings going on, and the urge to have a drink has been very strong. One of my many triggers is strong emotions, i drank on them for a long time. It's just tricky now sometimes dealing with them, sorting them out, etc.
But i remind myself that these days i am at least attempting to deal with them, albeit with varying success. Before i was just hiding from them, or trying to blot them out.
Main thing is i haven't had a drink. It's been hour by hour at times. There's been some strong internal dialogue going on. But i know it's not worth it!