Hello Deb, I live in Canada so the medical system is different here. They regulate narcotics very carefully. It is very difficult here to go from doctor to doctor as we have universal coverage for doctor visits. The government would catch on so the only way here to get pills is off the street. I feel bad for you because I also have gained alot of weight because of my illness and the meds that I take and the fact that I am not very active anymore. It was hell for me when my husband was still drinking because I had to take care of all my needs myself and I was not well enough to get around. Try to take care of yourself the best way you can and you can always get support from AlAnon.