You know, it's really hard when all of your friends drink too. And I know what most of you will say, leave those friends. But there's no way. There's no way that they would ever pressure me to drink, and they've been there forever. But, it's hard to say, I'm having friends over, and I'm not going to drink, even though they are, etc. As for AA, I've thought about it, but I hate to say that I'm really embarrassed to go. I know, that's probably a horrible thing to say, but I mean, am I weird in feeling that? That and the fact that I keep telling myself that I don't have time. I hid the fact from my husband that I was on antidepressents for months. The reason that I started taking them in the first place was so that I could see if they've held out with my urge to drink. Well, we all see how that story went. Anyhow thatnks for your nice notes. Grrr, it told me I couldn't send a PM until I had 5 posts on the forum. So, I will be in touch with you soon.