Day 6
Thank you very much to all that replied. Your presence here alone makes me feel stronger. I am on day 6. I had a great Saturday, but a very difficult Sunday. I was hoping that every day I would see gradual improvement, however, it seems to just go up and down. Even the lack of sun today is making me sad. I am being very productive however and pushing myself. I have slight cravings, mostly in the morning (that is when I took the pill, to give myself pep- like a cup of coffee!) Funny how I can look at this more objectively. Although I do have pain, especially in the morning, after I shower and get moving I find a way to tolerate it without the narcotics. Honestly, I just want my mind to get back to normal. I want to feel normal, no depression. I hate this part. I am positive that I am done with this in my life because I never want to have to live through this again. I really want to be okay with reality again.