LauraS

I feel I have to come clean here today.

Last night the pain in my hands became very bad and I started to obsess that perhaps a glass of wine would make it go away. I was curious about this being a symptom of withdrawal.

I convinced my husband that I should try one last time to be a "responsible drinker" and he confessed that he has missed drinking with me, so we shared a bottle of wine with and after dinner.

I am not sure what I am going to do now. My hands did, indeed, stop hurting and they do not hurt this morning. I know that this is not a good sign. I know that I cannot drink daily without feeding into the cycle of disrepair that is causing those symptoms. I need to sort this out.

Thank you all for your support here. Even though I was not ready to fully receive it, it has meant much to me.