TSH-
Congratulations on 100 days!
You should feel really good about this. I reached 100 days on Oct 31st and we had a world series parade that day. It was one of my worse days sober. Every one in the city was drinking all day. I am a sports fan and watched many a game drinking. I felt like I couldn't even be part of it.
I too am sober but do not feel recovered. I also can't get the forever thing until I read something and my thoughts go to maybe it is better if I never drink. I totally agree with you on all points and I am hoping someday we will look back and say this wasn't so bad.