Thanks Bernadette.
Why do I feel so bad about saying that I don't think I can cope with him in recovery? I used to go to Alanon's meetings and to be honest, I felt even worse after these because all the group members were sticking by their AS, supporting them all the way and I feel that I don't have the strength to do this again. Up until I left, I would have supported him but I feel like something has been broken, mostly trust and I can't repair it.
He has made promises so many times, broke them without any remorse, and now, for the first time he goes to detox/rehab, I can't trust him anymore and I don't want to get into his drama one more time, even if it may be THE time he gets sober....
I am feeling really bad about myself for opting out on this....