Originally Posted by
JustMeInWI 
I'll be sorry for this later. But right now I'm slipping. And I'm shutting my eyes as tightly as I can to it because I'm too tired to deal with another day alone, with no arms around me, no one to kiss me, to hold me, to say they love me... we both want it. He wants to feel in control again, and I want to feel "loved" again.
I love that you are able to look at this situation so honestly.
That's a gift.
I "shut my eyes" a time or two, as well. That's what it took to get me to a point where I was really ready for the changes I kept
wanting to want to make.
Who knows, JustMe? He's working a program - keep working yours and crack those peepers every now and then.
Maybe you'll see something beautiful.
Love to you today.
-TC