the best place for you is here, mate - really.
Leaving your support group is not the best idea - especially now.
Noone likes being taken to task, whether its justified or not - and I think some of us have made mistakes in the course of trying to help and being honest with you - but we're all as worried and concerned and frustrated as you are Paul.
It's a ****** situation all round for everyone.
But I've never seen anything here that wasn't said with love to you.
I think you should stick around.
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