susan, i've done the same thing so many times that i don't have enough fingers and toes tocount. usually within 1 hr., i knew i had made a huge mistake.
after he would go away, i would get the dreaded "selective memory" and want him back so bad i could taste it.
after awhile, i learned to play the tape all the way through. me calling him back was my baggage......nothing had changed. no wonder he got so many mixed signals from me.
i see some progress here, so don't beat yourself up......you realized quickly that you had made a mistake in having him come back home. at least you didn't wait for somethng really bad to happen to end it again.
and of course everytime i did this, i looked like a total fruit cake to everyone. i soon learned to accept that i was one.....at least at that point in recovery.
blessings to you