I've alienated my family
New Years day was horrible for me. I broke down and called my AH and begged him to come home. He was elated! The next day, I felt like I made a huge mistake. So, I told him I made a mistake and took him back to his mom's house.
I'm back on the merry go round and I hate it!
My parents, sibs, kids and friends were all so disappointed that I took him back.
He's convinced my family talked me out of it. I actually talked myself out of it. My family is so important to me, they have seen the trials and tribulations of what he's put me through.
He is currently not drinking but not working the program either.
I told him it's not fair to him that I gave him false hope.
He keeps reminding me of our vows, that a relationship is between two people, forget what my family is saying. Bashing my family with cruel words.
Please pray for me because I know I'm making the right choice for myself. I just need encouragement right now.