hi sorry and welcome....
Working through step 4 can be difficult and uncomfortable....well it was for me anyway..
Getting honest and clearing wreckage of the past aint easy and for me i faced the alcoholic me.....all my defences down and with complete honesty.
And it hurt like hell...
Bringing all that hurt and shame to the surface is a big deal and you need support.
I spent long periods with my priest and sponsor.
I know where your at.........all that denial and manipulation slipping away and there is the real you when you were drinking.............not nice...
Hopefully you have a sponsor to support you through this stage of self discovery.?
You can only benefit from getting rid of this s...t and it will help build a happy and contented sobriety.
and who wants to be sober and miserable?
SOME SUGGESTIONS..
1.Try to take some time to write down some positive stuff that you have done....no matter how bad you think you are there is always good stuff youve achieved.
2. Try to remember you were sick and now your doing something about it.
3. Try to contact your sponsor as often as you can for support.
4. Try not to dwell in 4 and move onto 5 as soon as you can.
5. Plenty of quiet time is good.
6. Get it all out..........no lingering doubts....my favourite saying "just do it"
These things were shared to me and they helped.
Good for you................attempting to leave your past behind and build a new and happier life.
It will happen...............well done .......................trucker..