I want to thank everyone for the advice. You all make so much sense - it is nice to know that I am not the only one who has felt this way or has gone through this.
Zombie Wife - Reading your post, I feel like I am reading my own life. Any type of affection right now does seem like work. I fell in love with him because he was caring and kind. Somewhere along the way he lost that and let the pills overtake his life. When that happened he changed into someone I no longer knew. He was deceitful, manipulative, and uncaring. I have found myself wondering at times if I should leave him and just move on with my life but I know deep down inside that is not what I want. But I know that until he is ready to really commit to recovering that we cannot begin to repair our relationship. Right now I am going to start concentrating on myself so that I can be happy again.
Thank you all. I wish everyone a very Happy New Year!!