I agree with LB I think that you are just getting your feelings back again. It's really difficult and especially at this time of year. I was cheated on by several people - the first time it happened when I was 19 and I still feel a lot of pain because of that. Subsequent people cheating on me has just added to the pain.
But you know what - you will get there. My sponsor said to me that noone ever promised me a rose garden and she was right. There is a lot more pain that I will go through in my life and there is a lot more tears to come but I'll get through them too as will you.
Love and peace heading your way along with a hug!
Kirst xxx