Thank you for your post. I feel like at times he is trying then he gives up and relapses. I think I will go to a live meeting - I know I need it. I am so caught up in being his caretaker that I am losing myself. I worry about him constantly and neglect myself. We have been married for 13 years and have two children. I love him dearly but I don't know the person he has become. I have my own issues I have to overcome (and have for a long time) but I sometimes wonder if the past is what is hurting our today and tomorrow.