The thing is, addiction is a viscious circle. You drink because you feel bad, then you feel worse and so you drink again. At some point, I needed to take a leap of faith and step out of the cycle. That meant taking a very hard look at myself and to begin to heal. I needed to face the shame and guilt and get through it without drinking. It's hard to do, but you can do it. And, it makes you stronger and it makes you like yourself, just a little bit. And, it's a beginning.