Chardoll,
I think each person's story is different. We are all unique and special in our own special ways. I cannot imagine what one is going through but with trying out different stuff I can see how habit forming it must be. I hope you find the stregth to keep clean and I hope for your family to be supportive. Were you able to get your energy and interests into something else like a good hobby or make friends with different crowd of folks?
All I can say for myself, I beat my nicotine addiction (4 yrs ago) which was a challenge and I never gone back to it Feb 27 will be 4 yrs I am nicotine free.
My husband's mom died from alcohol withrawal and it's related symptoms and his father stopped drinking for good as he approched mid 40's.
How happy can you be if it makes you upset/sick and everything else? If you know how bad it is for you and your family, what steps you doing to conquer this challenge if any?
So you have been clean a year at a time!!! thats HUGE!!! good for YOU!!!
I guess all i can say, each time is a practice and practice makes perfect.