Welcome Hippychicky!
Originally Posted by
hippychicky 
Can anyone give me some first baby steps to help me?
You've already taken a bunch of baby steps.
Your concerned enough about your drinking that you found this website.
You've recognized and don't like the affects that drinking is having in your life.
You had the courage to post here.
And the biggest of all - your asking for help.
Congratulations! Your making progress already. Please stick around, just keep reading and posting and good things will happen.