my 'bottom' was not physical or legal, thank you very much, but was mental: how long can I go on like this and not kill my worthless self?? I had no self respect left and had lost the respect of my kids. I'm very glad I didn't let myself get further down, but my attempt to get and stay sober took me months until I finally wanted to be sober more than anything else.
I'm so glad I didn't fall any further down the hole. It could have been so much worse.