Nick...sorry things are so rough right now....
Yep...alchohol was the answer to all my problems for a long time...even though it didn't work real well and added to the problems.
I went to detox and my dad died while I was there....got drunk as soon as I got out and took another year and a bunch of bad health issues before I got sober.
reading and posting here at SR you will see daily that there are other answers than alchohol that work a lot better...It isn't always easy..especially at the start....but well worth it in the long term...
I'm pretty happy with things today and there are sometimes weeks at a time that I am extatic!!!!!! :ghug