it is very tough. i took mine back about 25 times. finally figured some things out. wish i would have stuck to it the first time and saved myself, family, and friends alot of pain and hardships.
sounds like your gut is telling you what you need to do. my problem was that i kept following my heart instead of my head.
keep posting and reading.....there is a wealth of experience on this forum and many wonderful people who have been, or are in, you shoes. damn shoes.