Hi Chick. Your feelings are all perfectly normal, but that doesn't make it any easier. I felt like an alien for the first few weeks. We say it all the time on here, but it does get easier and you can learn to live again in a whole new way. I was very uncomfortable & my emotions were raw in the beginning, but I gradually began to appreciate not having a hangover or worrying about where my next drink was coming from, or what I'd said or done the night before. It's so freeing to no longer be a slave to it. Glad you're here with us.