Hey, chiy. Sorry you're struggling.
...I busted up my personal property last night because I couldn't control my anger. I snapped. I don't do that often. I guess I feel okay...now...sort of...
I had to keep my parents out of my room last night because I was in a rage. They heard me throwing things around and tried to get in. I was a scary person to be around last night so I kept them out.
I wish I had a way to help you. Just know you're not alone. I hope you feel better soon.