great support!
Thank you both so much for your replies. I think it is a great idea for me to definitely quit for a month at least. I feel excited to gain confidence in that I too, may not feel the need to drink at all. And another part of me fears that I will feel like "I need" a drink, after I get over this past weekends drinking rampage. I am going to commit to abstaining for a month to start and see where it takes me. Thank you so much.
I have already explained to my friends my guilt and horror in myself and have committed to being their DD for now...