Hi 23girl,
I'm sorry for your loss, I'm an only child of an only child and also lost my mom when I was only 33, I know how you feel. It was like loosing my whole family at once, I was an orphan. Mine wasn't alcoholic, she was diagnosed w/terminal cancer and was gone 3 months later. What a shock.
That was over 20 years ago and I still think about her every day, but not in a sad way or a bad way. I still talk to her all the time! I am sorry my 7yo dd never got to know her.
It's funny, my xaw's mom is in complete denial about her daughters disease and blames me for the situation we're all in. If the shoe were on the other foot, and I was the active alcoholic, my mom would have taken my wife and daughter in and told ME to hit the road. She was a good woman and I miss her.
Thanks and God bless us all, :praying
Coyote