it just seems to validate that i was a bad girlfriend. i wonder if hell ever get that i did the best i could, and that i was depressed. it just hurts that hed rather move on to some other girl, even though yes, i guess its a girl with low or no expectations rather than me. it makes me feel like i as too much to handle and i just dont understand how he could go from girlfriend to FRIEND. it just hurts.
i stopped running today because i burst in to tears thinking about at one point after we broke up he wouldnt go on a walk with me because it was "dating stuff and we couldnt do that" . i always have HOPE well get back together and he dashed it. i am afraid today, to ask him if maybe there is a bit more of a possibility when IM the one that shouldnt want anything.