Welcome Peacetiff! :ghug
Thank you for posting this. THIS is sometimes what keeps me sober. I am so afraid of it not being so easy to come back. So, what kept you sober for 5 years? Have you started writing? Contacted any sober friends? I know that relapse behavior starts long before you pick up the drink, so have you looked at this as well?
Sorry to bombard you with all these questions
But one more,
were you involved in a program of recovery?