loner - I certainly can understand.. I too had a difficult doing/going anywhere. When I was home - I wanted to be somewhere else.. when I was somewhere else - I wanted to be home. When I was home, I literally could not do anything.. I do go to alanon, and this was when I first started going. I did get a sponsor, and I was told that whereever I go I take myself with me, and that until I worked on myself and started to like myself..I would have these problems.. I did what she suggested and today I am a happy person, not depressed - I do not take on other peoples feelings, and I can be home alone and happy and content now...