My E, S, and H for you is to continue to be honest and upfront about your feelings, whatever they may be. Honesty is something I expect in a relationship and is directly tied to my ability to trust. In my opinion, it is almost hypocritical to expect honesty and not give it in return. Someone mentioned in an earlier post that it was bad timing when you expressed yourself. I have to ask if there really is a great time to tell someone, " hey..I don't know if I have ever loved you and I might wanna leave?" I'm a personal believer in the cliche that the truth shall set you free...
So, hugs to you...cause I can say that for me, it was hard, hard, hard living with an active A and making clear healthy decisions. Take a deep breath Houston. Take care.