Thank you all for your posts.
I have tried to find al-anon meetings in my area, the two numbers that are listed in the phone book never answer but I will keep trying.
I really like what would you said about what would you do if you were not afraid? Do it.
If I was not afraid, I would say okay, move out- get sober for a year and let's see.
He said last night, he wants to stay but can not promise he will not fall. I need to accept that he is doing his best or he would rather leave. His son has just moved to our city and is looking for a place, which would provide him with a place to live.
Which it would probably the best situation logically.
I always say okay make a decision, either is fine. Then I think the kids are expecting you here for christmas (my children,), it is nice being together when he sober. Maybe, I am afraid to be alone, which seems funny because I was on my own for 3 years, have a great job and support myself, good family, wonderful friends.
Or maybe it is the tought of failing twice. I think in the back of my mind. Oh, God if he can't love me, who could?