Thanks Horselover! We are now a four dog household again *sigh*
I am telling you, it is hell. The problem is he is an alcoholic too though he's not as bad as me. I honestly have considered moving out for a while, sometimes I think that is the only way I will sober up, but I don't want to leave my husband either. It's a catch 22.
Yeah I am glad that my reminder helped, if it's not the physical symptoms (headache, puking, weird bruises, fatigue) then the emotional ones (self hatred, embarassment, shame, confusion, etc) should be enough of a deterrent. And that's not even getting into the financial aspect of it! I don't why I don't listen to my own words of wisdom, I really think a part of me wants to self destruct and that scares me.