Originally Posted by
cessy68 
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I just got back home, and he said "baby, what are u doing... are you comming to bed"...
and I will admitt, there was a shred of my heart that heard an ol voice comming from the other room- and I wanted to cling to it. The problem now is, I know those moments are like crumbs. If one gets a pitter patter in the heart, from one statement- that goes to show you how little I recieve in this relationship now.
I'm sick of rowing a boat all by myself. I'm tired.
Thankyou again for listening.
Cess
Exactly! You put it so well. The crumbs that we accept are so far from what they used to be and yet because we cling to the hope of that person returning we are willing to accept the crumbs.
I know that is where I was. I would even pick fights on purpose just to have his ATTENTION. That is when I knew that it wasnt gonna last much longer. I knew that what he used to give compared to what I was currently getting was no longer acceptable. That just really resonates with me because I remember feeling that way on a daily basis. Waiting for the crumbs....