Originally Posted by
lavenderrain 
My last day of work is Wednesday and then I have a few days off for Thanksgiving. That's when I'm gonna do it. I'm not gonna od and die before then, I've just been doing wee little shots, enough to keep me from getting sick but not enough to get me high. I have a paper due on Tuesday so I'm gonna do that first. I know some people say quit now and forget about the class, but that's my decision and I'm sticking to it. I'm feeling more hopeful about everything now and less consumed by fear. I'm really just wanting to get it over with now. I realize it's never "over" as Jeff Buckley says, but, yeah fjdkslajgfd9a0dg
Are you making reference to one of my all-time favorite musical moments, there, Lavs?
it's never over
my kingdom for her kiss upon my shoulder
it's never over
all my riches, for her smiles, when i slept so soft against her
it's never over
all my blood for the sweetness of her laughter
it's never over
she's a tear that hangs inside my soul forever
oh, but maybe i'm just too young
to keep good love from going wrong ...
such a great part of a friggin amazing song ...