Hi Rain
I think your feelings are natural............... the self loathing and disgust of the addict makes you feel so guilty........ its all part of addiction.
But you have made the first huge step - you know you have a problem and are now going to do something about it....... and I think that once you have started on your way - things will fall into place.
You say you have a doctor who will prescribe suboxone? Well - read the other threads in here about it - seems like a very gently way to go?
Take heart - you'll be fine - it has to be done? Your parents will be so glad for you - and I'm sure they will be supportive.
More than detox thought - I think you need to have some sort of plan to deal with the future - like NA?
In fact - a meeting just now would help so much - would get the support to help you thro detox
woops