hockeydad3

So here's my short version. I began taking hydrocodone (7.5mg) about 3 1/2 years ago after enduring my 7th ankle surgery due to yet another volleyball injury. I have been taking between 3 and 7 pills a day, every day, since then. I have chronic pain in the mid-foot area of both my feet from arthritis that has formed from the numerous surgeries. I am currently taking an average of 6 pills a day right now and don't really know that I want to quit, although I can see it affecting my personality with both my wife and my 2 awesome kids. I have been seeing a pain management specialist who has limited me to 3 pills per day and will not refill prescriptions early for me; however, obtaining "extra" has not bee a problem for me. I have been true to the contract I signed with my Dr. about hopping from medical professional to medical professional and attempting to gain more. This does not mean that I haven't stolen a few here and there from friends I knew had it on hand.

In addition, I know that I am using the drug to assist in my depression which I have suffered with for a while now. Dad passed away in April and that is when my usage really began to increase. On top of the hydro, I also take Zoloft and Welbutrin for my depression but find it causes such severe headaches that I always stop it on my own and go back to the hydro.

I've tried a couple of times to get off of it and began to get pain in my feet so bad that I just want to cry. I don't know if this pain is from the arthritis or the withdrawal, but I have yet to be able to go long enough to find out.

The only reason I find myself here today is that my Rx will run out well before I am able to refill it and I am out of options for obtaining more. Maybe it's time for me to get on a program.

OK--maybe not the short version, but I could really use some help.