Algernon, it just won't be worth it, please trust us! We've all been where you are. I thought the way you're thinking right now for 25 yrs. - and I always gave in to those thoughts. I never had the courage to do what you're doing - trying to change. You can't be sure where those 2 drinks would lead - I know for me, that was the beginning of a long night, ending with passing out and starting the whole thing again early the next day. Please let us know how you're doing.